It was a good ride while it lasted
July 24th, 2008Eventually, the moment came. I’ve always found that no matter what Great Event is bearing down upon me, it never hits me until the last minute, until it is impossible for me not to think about it. I think this is probably because of my tendency to insulate myself; I so dislike unhappiness that I will not think about unpleasant things until they force themselves upon me.
When it comes time to face the unhappiness, however, I find a way to enjoy it. Perverse enjoyment perhaps. It all comes, I sincerely believe, from my interest in and love for movies and all things cinematic; even though I have abandoned (for the time being, anyway) my early desire to be a filmmaker, I still think in cinematic terms, and I always imagine my life to be the storyline of a movie. From this I get a flair for the melodramatic. I demonstrated this as I left Carowinds for the last time.
I worked at the Carowinds theme park for six years, starting during my senior year in high school. I spent my first summer on the parking lot crew; but for the five years after that I worked in the Rides Department. It was hot, physically exhausting, and monotonous work; my supervisors were often arbitrary and sometimes incompetent. But Carowinds also defined a large part of my world for those six years. I met Lynn there, and it was through many hours of working together that we got to know one another. Carowinds was the fire in which our relationship was forged.
It was, of course, just a job. Like all formative experiences, it was important not because of what it was, but because of when it was. My time at Carowinds spanned one of the most important intervals in my life: my entire undergraduate college career, and the whole of my courtship with Lynn. I started working there as a school kid, and I left as an adult.
It had started as a childhood fantasy: for a kid, the idea of working at Carowinds seemed like a dream. You didn’t think about changing trash cans or cleaning restrooms, or about hours of stupefying boredom. You just thought about getting to run the rides. And for me, it was more specific than that: I wanted to operate the White Lightnin’ roller coaster, and make the dramatic “Lightning strikes now!” announcement – part of the standard “spiel” that preceded each launch of the train.
Lots of people have left Carowinds forever, and many of them have been long-time employees. But when it’s time to leave, they just leave. Not me: I had to do it in an appropriate manner for my audience, in an appropriately cinematic style. (Someday I might make a movie of this, and I didn’t want to have to exaggerate.)
So first, after I had gathered my cache of going-away gifts from the crew, I had to do it one last time. The childhood dream which now was over, I had to relive – one for the movie, you know. I stepped up into the dispatch booth. “Excuse me, Megan,” I said, edging her away from the control panel. “I’ve got to shoot the train one last time, for old times’ sake.”
“Oh, you’re going to get sentimental,” she said, and graciously gave up the controls to me.
I started my Rides career at the bumper cars, where (after a year) I was promoted to supervisor. But I was a lousy supervisor, and the management was not prepared to put me in charge of a high-profile ride like a roller coaster. For three years I toiled away at less prestigious assignments, all the while figuring out how to be responsible and reliable.
The ridiculous truth is that I learned much of what I know about succeeding in the workplace from my years at Carowinds. I learned how to motivate a team and keep up their morale; I learned how to organize and schedule; and I learned how to keep one’s boss happy. My efforts were finally rewarded in 1988, when I was given custody of White Lightnin’ during its last year at the park.
The train rumbled into the station for what would be my last time. I tried to take in every detail. I took a breath, and I swear, my eyes began to tear.
The train stopped. I began the series of button-pushing and spiel announcements that had become completely automatic, but this time I concentrated and savored every syllable.
“For those of you now boarding, welcome to White Lightnin’. Please pull your lap bar securely to your waist, and secure any and all loose and valuable items. Carowinds is not responsible for anything lost or held during this ride.”
It was a great summer, the best of my Carowinds career. My crew was happy and efficient; I knew my job well, and my superiors trusted me. And, of course, I got my chance to say “Lightning strikes now!” countless times (sometimes using different voices or accents to keep it interesting). It was my ride, and I had earned it.
But 1988 was also my last year there. Engaged to be married that summer, I knew that seasonal employment would no longer be sufficient. And so it was with genuine sadness that I gave my notice in June, and began training my assistant to replace me. Those final weeks were strange: I’d trained a competent crew, and as I gradually stepped aside I got to see for myself that they were going to do fine without me. When my last shift ended on July 24, 1988, the only thing left for me to do was to leave.
I had planned this sentimental farewell to the ride, and had thought about how I would do it. My mother asked me later if I had told those on the train that this was my last time ever to operate the ride. But that wasn’t what I wanted to do: this was a private moment for me. I wanted to sharpen my memory of what it was like to drive this ride by doing it one last time and paying attention to every detail. And it had to be the real thing. It couldn’t be a farewell speech, and it couldn’t be a creative spiel with funny voices or German accents. This had to be by the book.
“Please remain seated at all times and keep your arms and legs inside the train throughout the ride.” The seriousness and longing in my voice must have begun to come through: Megan said “aww…” behind me. I was almost finished.
“Place your head against the headrest and your hands on the handrail in front of you,” I said. My finger trembled on the button.
Sometimes I thought about writing a detailed account of my time at Carowinds; I’d known a lot of interesting people there, and those six years had been filled with drama and soap-opera subplots (my romance with Lynn at center stage, of course). I did write some reminiscences, which someday I’ll pull together into a coherent narrative; but it wasn’t until the very end that I felt motivated to record a specific scene in complete detail. Half a year before I officially started keeping a journal, I wrote an account of my final moments of Carowinds employment: events that took place on an afternoon twenty years ago today.
I had said this last sentence, the ultimate catch phrase of Carowinds spiels, in so many different voices and intonations that I thought there were no new ones left. But never before had I given it the reading I gave it this time.
I took a breath. “Lightning strikes now.”
I pressed the button, and both the train and I were gone.


